i wish that i didn't feel like i have to lie to people to get them to like me.
i've been trying to stop because i lost several of my close friends last year because of it.
but, only three have really stood by me, and sometimes i lie to them too.
i can't even control it.
i feel like if they knew me in real life they wouldn't be my friends.
not that i really deserve anything they've done for anyway.
but i am trying to stop and i do it less and less everyday.
i wish i had the guts to tell the girls who told me i would always be a liar how much better i become. i'm almost a totally different person.
i just want to be able to not care what people think so much so i can enjoy life and spend less of it worrying about every single detail of myself.
i really appreciate what my close friends have done for me and will never forget it.
i am truly trying to change myself.